Dear Mom (continued).

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 Hey there Beauties!

Yesterday, I was so vulnerable with you guys. Today I continue. This is the final piece of that letter I wrote years ago. 


December 2018.

Dear Mom,

I wasn't everything, but you made me live like I was and you treated me like I was. You were always rooting for me, my biggest cheerleader. You pushed me way past my limits and you set no ceiling on what I could've become (if you didn't die), you set no boundaries for me. The sky is the limit? Why stop at the stars? Psssshhhhh, there's a whole galaxy beyond. You believed in me. Even when the whole world was fighting against me, even with sickness, you fought against it. You fought for me. 

Granted, life wasn't all cupcakes and rainbows. It never was. We had our disagreements. We had our arguments. But at the end of the day, I'd do it all over again. I wouldn't change a thing about it. Cause you built me into the warrior that I am today. You shaped my whole life, with just your love. And your miserableness. And your cursing, even at 1 in the morning. You moved mountains with your love for me. The few arguments that we've had could never make me hate you. NEVER. Cause you were everything to me. You'd drop your whole life to come to my rescue, our rescue ; your children and grandchildren. You'd go hungry just to send me to school. You'd go naked that I have clothes. And the Lord knows I'm not just saying that. I could live my whole life tryna live without you and I'd just fail. Cause you were my mother, my father (even though he's still here), my teacher, my family, my friend, my backbone, my STRENGTH. So instead of saying RIP, I really wanna look up and say thank you Lord for her time. But I can't, cause I miss you mom. I miss you Neta. I miss you every day. And I can't live without you.

One might ask, "How does someone die while they're still breathing?" Look at me, I'm doing it.

With all my love,

Bella


Thank you all for reading my purest thoughts. Stay tuned for more.

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