Hold on to Hope.

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 Hello there Beauties!

Life has been hard. It has been roughly 5 months since I even thought about writing because I simply do not have the words. I have found myself in waves and waves and waves of depression, sadness and loneliness, and thy somehow only got worse. During my 21 years of life, I have never cried as much as I did this year and I HATE crying. It has just been so hard, so overwhelming, so lonely. I am thankful though, that I was not alone, when my mind convinced me that I needed to be. 

Now, as much as I'd like for this to be a new season, it isn't. Christmas is fast approaching and I think that this is the time I feel saddest. It's a season of bittersweet memories of love and loss. It is a time of guilt because I feel some semblance of happiness that I do not think I deserve. It is a time of love: and having lost someone near and dear to me, I cannot find enough hope to truly appreciate the people in my here and now. 

But alas, we have to keep fighting the good fight. We must remain steadfast in faith and hope. I love the word hope: the belief that something good will happen. I encourage you, my dear reader, to hold on to hope, as I myself try to do the same. 

Take time to look at all you have overcome. You may not have been prepared, or even ready for half the things you have gone through. You might even argue that you did not deserve it. But here, you are: a survivor of 100% of your worst days. Hold on to hope, you got this!


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