I'm back, baby!

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Hello there Beauties!

I'm back, baby! I am sooooo back! Listen, as always, we thank God for His unprecedented blessings and guidance over our lives. We take moments to complain and to wallow, but we come back, and we come back with renewed purpose, okay? I have been struggling to get back into the groove of writing because while my mind is always so loud and my thoughts are heavy, my heart remains silent. While the words fly out of my mind to put pen to paper (or in this case, fingers to keyboard), it is through my heart that writing flows. In all cases, if my heart is silent, my brain is also empty, and so, here we are. But alas, I said I am back, and babyyyy, I am SO BACK. 

I am still in the process of Re-wiring My Mind, and so I will continue that series shortly. I am healing little ol' me one step (post) at a time, and it's.... a process. I find myself obsessed with the 'now' and being impatient. I want things to change now. I want to heal now. I want to let go of this now. I want to do this now, I want to do that now, etc. I keep forgetting that things take time, and there is a process. I need to exercise patience, but it is NOT on my prayer list because I am not ready for that kind of patience. I am learning to appreciate the now, but also actively working on the future (if that makes sense). It is all about slowing down, breathing, enjoying, living. I get so caught up in trying to do the absolute most (believe me, I am sick of myself sometimes) that I forget that I am doing it from scratch, so clearly, it will take time. 

The goal for Q4 is to slow down and work hard. It is the lock-in season (but not in the traditional sense), but with restrictions. I am vowing to not push myself beyond my limits just for the sake of 'levelling up.' It's imperative that I recognize my strengths and also my weaknesses. I know I don't work well under pressure, so pushing and pushing will only lead to burnout. You know how they say diamonds are made under pressure? Not me. I crumble under pressure. So, here's to slowing down, but still making strides. It is 1000% easier to keep going than it is to pick yourself back up after burnout. 

If this finds you, it is for you. Take it at your own pace. A small step forward is still a step forward. It literally does not matter how fast you're going, only that you are going. It doesn't matter when you get there, just that you do. Forget the world and do it the best way you can. Keep showing up for yourself as best as you can. There is no race, there is no rush, there is no timer. Keep going. You owe it to yourself to give it all you've got, but you also owe it to yourself to enjoy the now. Life is a journey, not a destination. Trust the process, but also enjoy it. 

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Love from all ends, 
Bella 

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