Well Hello France!

Hello there Beauties!

 

It has been a crazy four weeks, and I have been unable to write, edit, and post as much as I wanted. I feel like I have been making so many excuses for my inconsistency, but this time, it feels different because there is a legitimate reason. I promise. Inconsistency has been my best friend these days, but I’m determined to be better. Truly. Hold me accountable!

To start things off, I am writing this entry from the south of France. Hoorayyyyyyyyy! It has been an absolutely scary journey getting here, but alas, I am here, and I have made it. Who would have thought? Certainly not me. 

Remember my last post about Timing and Destiny? I truly say and reflected on my life while I wrote that post: all the closed doors, the no’s, the unfortunately’s, and the ‘I’m so sorry’s.” They’ve all led to this moment, this opportunity, this new chapter of my life. Of course in the moments all I could think about was, “mi salt eeeh” and “den a wa do me so?” But honestly, if nothing else, this trip to France has happened at the right time, under the right circumstances. 

If you recall, last year, when I was attending such college, I was supposed to go to France for a semester (which eventually was reduced to 6 weeks) as part of my degree. I was very excited to go (and who wouldn’t be?) As you would’ve had it, of course I didn’t see the first dollar. I had a nice job that I did part time (big up Samantha) and unfortunately, I lost that job in the February before I was to go on the trip. I was also supposed to go to the US to work in the summer before the trip, and you guessed it — that also did not work. So, there I was, out of options. When my classmate went on the trip by herself (big up Serena), I was at home (I had dropped out of college by that time) wallowing in my depression. Of course, my mind feels idle when I’m idle, so I did a certification (Teaching English as a Foreign Language - TEFL) and I got 3 other jobs in that time to of course put food on my table. 

I applied for the program I’m on (I’ll make either a TikTok or a YouTube video about it soon) as a “why not?” moment to boost myself, and well, here we are almost a year later. I say all this to say (never mind the yapping), never give up on yourself. Also, if there are moments that you do (inevitably) have those “mi salt” moments, and those clouds of doubt that attack the best of us, make sure your circle believes in you and your abilities to either be great, or bounce back trying (no dying around here). Big shoutout to my circle - but first we haffi big up God because none of this would be possible without His hand on my life. To the love of my life - thank you for always believing in me and supporting me in everything I do. I love you. Lumsy - your delusions are exactly why I’m here because when I was busy worrying about the “how” you already planned and talked about it like it already happened. Dim - my forever soulmate, thanks for putting up with all the “mi salt” talks and reminding me that I’m a star, and stars don’t die. Thank you for believing in me. Shimaya - you were there from I applied as a joke to me actually going through with it. You never once doubted me, and I am so grateful for that. Everybody else - thanks for supporting the delusions ❤️

It has been a JOURNEY getting here, and being here has been a DREAM. I try to post twice a week on TikTok about my trip, so follow me on there. Also, the time zone difference is so hard to get used to. But anyway, here’s to Sunday blogs again. 

Thank you guys for reading. Love from all ends, 

Bella 

QOTD: If I post on YouTube, will you guys watch the videos?